Monday, May 15, 2006
i gotta stop losing my head over everything
and i gotta stop feeling so bloody pissed off
oh, shut up people.
i'm so sick of your noise.
(i'm randomising, sorry.)
i'll never forget yesterday
the thought of that stupid mother's day dinner makes me
SICK okay here goes,
NDP training lasted till like 6 plus then the time that we reached school was like 7 plus already
so my dad called up saying he'd wait for me to start the dinner
reached Sakae Sushi at 8.10pm
and only to find out that my WHOLE family has already eaten
and freaking hell, the rushed me throughout the WHOLE DINNER
"simin, you're eating so hell slow. eat faster lah."
okay i'll still be able to understand that; they wanna get home and rest
one thing.
at the NDP thingy, the guy gave us free roses to give our moms
so i gave that rose to my mum and guess what the freaking hell she said?
"aiyo, who give one? your friend huh? not you buy one right?"
i know it's not my money
but at least i gave it to you right?
why so many remarks?
and so sacarstic?
and worst still, you didn't even wanna hold it
"nah, i think you help me carry your rose better."
YOUR rose,
YOUR ROSE.i'm so pissed off and yet she doesn't realise.
and i suppose my sis does stuffs better than me
and i don't give you a goodnight kiss
but SO WHAT?
there isn't a need to practice favouritism and keep siding her
AM I RIGHT?
i've ALWAYS respected adults
but not now anymore.
they're liars and expect us to "DON'T LIE" and follow their "VERY GOOD EXAMPLE"
but look, what shit have they given us?
went orchard with my two aunt, mum and three cousins
and wow, it's THEIR shopping spree
went TAKA just to sit in Macs, waiting for the adults to finish their stupid shopping
and they're shopping for POTS AND PANS.
so we waited and waited.
until i gave that damn call.
"Hello? Mum? Where are you now?"
"Oh, just in a minute, wait for us there alright? And rmb to behave yourselves"
and she hung up.
stood there like an idiot
and my cousins came flooding over me, asking what the ADULTS said
i told them they were coming
then my younger cousin complained
that they were taking such a long time
and he was getting bored
so i HAD to HELP the adults lie saying "oh, they're coming, they're coming"
and when they finally shopped their contentments, i told them i wanted to buy a bag
(for my beloved Grandma)
there was Sales for bags at TAKA
but No, that's what they said.
"No No, Wisma's stuffs are BETTER.."
so i gave in. counted up till three hundred.
then when we were walking through goodness knows where, to Wisma,
guess what?
the I-Know-Everything-You-Don't-Know people started shopping!
and for their own stuffs summore!
so i put on a smile and gave in
but what's the thing that i can't stand
was my aunt's critisism bout my fashion taste.
i pointed to this trenchcoat and said it looked pretty
she rolled her eyes and said
"yeah, you and your collared stuff"
so i stopped bottling my anger
when my aunt picked this floral dress,
she asked me for my opinion
and i told her yeah, it's nice, and ah mas at the market wears it.
so i got scolded for that
wth, why adults can't get scolded for not keeping their word?
they said Wisma was better and told me to shut up and follow them
but look at their example?
is it good?
okay, maybe i'm wrong and i don't realise that
but really, these are my opinions about adults
have they ever showed us the "Ideal" daughter/son wannabe example?
have they ever stopped lying?
so to all the mums or adults, whatsoever, who are reading this,
give your daughter/son/nephew/niece
a chance to speak up
they do really need that chance.
i'm one of them. and if my mum is reading this,
i do really hope we could be able to learn each other's language
and not throw words at each other
and i do really hope you'd stop making me think that you're being bias.
sorry for the long post people,
i really feel better after ranting it out.
thank you for your time in reading this.
mused at 6:30:00 pm
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